Relationship Status: Complicated

Relationship status "Complicated" . . . She has been present in every of the women I have known as lover, at least by some measure. She is Mahamaya, the beauty and granduer and splendor of the illusion, She makes up the matrix of reality and provides the stage for this romance. She is Durga, a name which literally means 'inaccessible,' at least alot of the time. She is the Mother but I'm rather sure She's not mine. As a yogi of the tantra school She is my partner in practice even when I am alone, the linga of my flesh not encompassed in a woman's warm yoni. I have at least met Her as Avatar fully manifest as one or another of the Beloveds I've encountered in my wanderings, as one of those exceptionally beautiful and beatific women I chanced notice and perhaps romance somewhere along the way. She is Wife of my True Self for all eternity, yet often as not I sleep alone. Complicated indeed.

Work In Progress: The Truth of the Matter and Mind and the Subtle Story

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The Truth of the Matter and Mind and the Subtle Story

The story more twisted than the most fantastic science fiction or fantasy or commonly tauted conspiracy theories would tell it, more complex and paradoxically more simple than most the religions of the world would have it. Though certainly sanAtana dharma most precisely presents the basic framework of the whole show (so far as I have seen represented at least) and tell the most significant figures and archetypes, the subtle intricacies, or as my friend and once-upon-a-time lover Star used to call it , the “Politics of the Gods,” indeed prove bizarre and psychologically complex beyond any concise telling I've yet encountered (though I've scarcely scratched the surface of writ Vedic teachings). And indeed, the Sanskrit term lila seems the best descriptor to describe, and also the most optimistic and true. We are the play of the Divine Mind made manifest, and the twists of global politics and religious conflicts and popular culture can tell the true tale between or outside the lines, if one has an eye to see and an ear to hear.

      The basic context of the Story is a Love Story and an exercise in philosophy and poetry and sexuality and intrigues, and is about an ancient archetypal Family, a bizarre drama and rather confusing comedy. Though I have a clear enough understanding granted me by study and channeled information and memories near and ancient of certain secrets regarding the absurdity of the real story, I am not as yet certain I can much convey what I have discovered, been shown and realized, beyond a rather cursory telling compared to the intricacies of the Grand Production I have been made privy to and in which I am seeming a player—though the part I play is in truth not so uncommon, as all are likewise connected to the As Above So Below, As Below So Above symmetries that show we are indeed all the Divine at Play, that the True mythic tales telling of the Gods and Goddesses and the interplay of nations are about people at the ground level in ways analogous to the supposed Great. Archetypally solid. The people of any home town are in some way playing out the Grand Plot as if a local theater putting on a Broadway production—and exactly which level is indeed the determining of a given act or scene's purport or outcome is not always easy to determine).

      The most significant Persons/Personages in regards to the Religio-Political plot of the most recent 5-10,000 years are indeed arrayed as Three, Trimurti and Tridevi, and contingently their Progeny and friends and foes both supposed and otherwise. Brahman the answer and the question provides the conflict it's context.

      Brahman is the Universal Divine, “God” as represented by the religion that is indeed root to the world's religion generally, sanAtana dharma or “Hinduism.” The English word “God” is derived from the Sanskrit “go,” by the way, which translates directly as “cow,” as in those divine creatures willingly give humans their milk and say “Mooo.” Atman is “God” in each individual being.

Indus Valley Civilization or Harrapan Culture as it has become known, seemed to have met a rather abrupt end somewhere around 1900 BCE. Right about at that time, the patriarch of a tribe and his crew left a place called Ur, not far from the center of Indus Valley Civilization. His name was/became Abraham. In Sanskrit as in Greek and English, “A” before a word means “not” that. Buddhist generally taut a belief known as Abrahman, which can be understood as meaning that there is no Universal Divine Person, i.e., no brahman. Thus the contention of many Hindus that Buddhists are atheists. Buddhism is unequivocally derived from Hinduism, as Guatanama Buddha was a Hindu prince. I would therefore contend that both the Abrahamic religions and Buddhism can be understood as thus positing the question and theories regarding the Divine as understood by their forebearers, “If not God as we once believed, then what?” Both are in denial of what their forebearers believed the Divine and the Nature of existence to be.

      Abraham's crew, traveling to the west and through varied religious contexts, still practiced making murtis till 700 years later when Moses said that was bad, and Hebrews to this day believe in reincarnation, which they call gilgul, which translates as “going in a circle”--like the Sanskrit samsara. Brahma's wife is Saraswati. Abraham's wife, according to the Hebrew tradition, was Sara. Hagar was handmaid to Sara according to the Hebrew tradition, though the Muslims claim Hagar was the primary wife of Abraham. The Ghaggar River is tributary/connects to the Saraswati River.

      The Hebrew myth purporting to tell of the origins of circumcision is almost certainly an alteration of one of the myth which tells why Brahma, the Creator (Himself a created being), is not much worshiped in India. This myth tells of Brahma lusting after a beautiful woman He created early in the process of creation and growing a “fifth head” to continue to lust after her as she sought to evade His gaze, and of Siva (God the Destroyer Who was indeed not created) cutting off Brahma's fifth head using His pinky fingernail (instead of the trishul Mahadeva would normally use to sever heads), as directly creating another more than implies parentage of said other. Thus if indeed connected as seems well enough evidenced, the Hebrew rite of circumcision is derived from/is in fact an incest taboo rite. Certainly clues into what really animates the big story, one connected for millennia across continents and the Oceans blue, and mostly all relating to the archetypally well formed constructs of sanAtana dharma, “keepin' it together forever.”

      The three Abrahamic religions mirrors or unconsciously half-hearken to or shows direct response to the Hindu Trimurti of Creator, Maintainer and Destroyer/Brahma, Vishnu and Siva in that order, and beyond anything mere dispersion theory could account for. The Hebrews constructs thus connecting to Brahma the Creator, Christians' to Krishna/Vishnu the Maintainer, and Muslims' to Siva-Kali/Uma the Destroyer and Destroyerette.

      The above telling of the Hebrew connection to Brahma, likewise Christianity rather obviously reflects or re-presents the myths and archetypal constructs of Krishna and Vishnaivism generally. Krishna a Cowherd, Christ a Shepherd; Gopis the Milkmaid Lovers of Krishna, Christians the Bride of Christ. Jesus's proper name, Jeshua, is pronounced rather like Ishvara, a name attributed to Vishnu and Siva both, and which means “Lord.” Both died as result of a piercing wound. Both ascended from death and into the heavens in whatever guise. Both are supposed to return riding horses of light palour, etc.

Islam similarly somehow mirrors or recalls or responds to Siva and Shakti. The primary confession of Islam is known as one of the “Kalimas,” seemingly a subtle recognition of Kali Ma, “Black Mama” Goddess of the Universe and perhaps the most popular Avatar of Siva's Consort Shakti if not most popular Goddess in the world. One of Islam's primary tenets is Ummah and Shakti is also known as Uma, the Universal Divine/Brahman Incarnate as a Woman. Put a “v” in the middle of Shi'ite and you get “Shivite.” Supposedly the Kaaba Stone in Mecca yet holds a Siva Linga stone, the only murti not removed when Mohammed removed the “idols.” Many Muslims are looking for the coming of the “Mahdi,” which sounds rather like “Mahadeva”—“Great God” in Sanskrit and one of Siva's Names.

      Thus despite their attempts to differentiate themselves from each other and from their religious and philosophical roots, the Abrahamic religions seemingly cannot help but follow the patterns expounded by sanAtana dharma. Else they are at least are in some guise responding to the Hindu Trimurti and Tridevi and the preexistent concept of brahman.

      The Buddhist response to the (more acknowledgedly) root religion and their denial of sanAtana dharma's central tenet, brahman, is clearly related to a critique of suffering and the age old question “If God is Good and All Powerful, why is there suffering?” as the Buddhist answer is thus, “there is no God. It's all just illusion, even Him/Her.”

      Certainly there are twists and subtleties to these relations if deconstructed and told further, so very many intrigues and hidden plots lay behind the headlines and history writ which tell of the most twisted theatrics and neurotic and seeming psychotic and beyond soap opera bizarre reasons for the flow of world affairs, culture, religion and social convention, word play and the facades of society and civic myth. The most significant singular origin of the narrative which tells true the flow of world affairs for the most recent 5-10,000+ years is clearly that told most succinctly and best contextualized by sanAtana dharma, the myths and religious constructs of India's/the world's most ancient known religion.

      Though seeming distant from “Western” Culture, ancient subtle spells, indeed mantras are writ into colloquial English and common American phrases. “Hooray!! Hoorah!!” a scarcely veiled invocation of Hari-Hara, Vishnu and Siva, the Maintainer and Destroyer sharing one Body. “Amen” is just missing the “U” of “AUM” (pronounced properly A-U-Mñ). The missing “U” is thus found half hidden in at least the referent “you” of so many popular songs and certain other uses of the personal pronoun, a subtle spell assuring the people remember to include some recognition of God the Destroyer, some devotion for the Divine with Dreads, Grand Purveyor of the Party. This aesthetic applied to interpreting and listening to music can certainly offer an alternative take on groovin' to the tunes.

Seeing so many scenes as I've been shown tell supposed monologues of particular players in the Grand Production, oft as not in voices feel and sound (if that sense can be said to apply to non-audible cognized voices, the which I have, by the way, heard as direct premonition another's voice speaking words only moments later spoken by the selfsame physically embodied person, as if I'd heard said person thinking a phrase before saying it. Not the same as these not audible inner channeled voices oft internally “heard/seen” proffering some interesting or despicable tidbit, the which often prove of in fact Grand significance to the truth of the history of this world and the politics and devotions and Deities, the “what really happened . . .” of the supposed pivotal events in history) to be real people, some of whom I've known, telling so many inside stories, conveying connections of historical figures and pop culture personages, Devas and Devis posing as everyday persons else sometimes celebrities and betraying clues to the twisted transmigrational milieu of who is who, as well as average people likewise playing out the archetypal cycles as if merely living “their own” individual dramas. So many players are mostly unconsciously presenting an alternate history to the official, microcosmically as well as in the bigtime, indeed as if we all really already intrinsically know the true patterns weave the Story together just so.