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I am a mystic madman, a wandering wildman, scholar of esoterica, dilettante sadhu, dready-headed hippie (only have a few jata on the back of my head right now, though more be forming of this third set of knotted hair), gentle yogi, fierce foe of falsity. I was a preacher, but I renounced that. I was married, but she renounced me. I was a grad student at one of the top universities in the world on my way to becoming a professor, but I realized they taught lies there too. I am protector of souls, lover of mountains, smoker of herb, fond of hot springs, oceans and lakes and rivers and rain and sunshine, devotee of Devi.

Hindu Gods and Goddesses

Monday, February 20, 2017

Ayyappa, Most Famously Known in Recent Centuries as Jesus . . .

Ayyappa, also known as Sastha (Mount Shasta?) shown seated between two of His Brothers, is the Son of God Shiva and Goddess/God Vishnu (Krishna sometimes comes as a Goddess named Mohini), and is the Protector of Created Beings. 


Jeshua ben Joseph (aka Jesus Christ), pictured with Krishna watching over Him, is said to have said "I have other sheep that are not of this fold..." (John 10:16) indicating He had followers other than Christians, and thus that He had lived other places/lifetimes.

Jeshua pictured with His real "Mother" Krishna looking over Him? 
The Virgin Mary thus the suitable surrogate mother to birth the Avatar of Ayyappa known as Jeshua ben Joseph?
Vishnu/Krishna (Who is Paramatma, the Supreme Self who is the source of Atman, God seeded in all beings, and Ayyappa's Mother) as "the Holy Spirit"??
Shiva as "The Father"? 

Ayyappa heals the blind:
Upon completing his princely training and studies when he offered 'gurudakshina' or fee to his guru, the master aware of his divine power asked him for a blessing of sight and speech for his blind and dumb son. Manikantan placed his hand on the boy and the miracle happened.  (http://srinagaroo.blogspot.com/2013/04/lord-ayyappa.html?m=1)


Ayyappa raises the dead:

One of Ayyappa's names is Lakshmanapranadata generally meaning Reviver of Lakshmana's Life,

Ayyappa Mantra

Bhootha natha Sadaananda
Sarva Bhootha daya Para
Raksha Raksha Maha Bhaago
Sastre thubhyam Namo Namaha

The protector of all created beings
Ever blissful and merciful to all
protect me, SASTA, prostrations
unto Thee Oh Great warrior !!!

Friday, February 17, 2017

Madman's Task revised . . .

A Madman's Task, But Somebody Gotta Tell The Truth


A madman's task, this. An errand knight's endeavor, a sorcerer's conjuring secrets from the depths of our memories ancient and sublime, stark and dark truths that do invert assumptions and paradigmatic presumptions proffered by the Official discourse; upending religious predispositions and spells spun to lull the minds of the people to sleep, disturbing those subtle taboos surreptitiously existing between the lines of discourse which somehow prevent us from seeing the obvious stories of history; challenging, in fact, assumptions of which end is up and which is down, in terms of the common paradigms proffered, and indeed challenging those constructions which purport to tell which way is to heaven and which to hell; and telling long obscured tales of collusion and subtle twists to the tales of the world's religions, where indeed true tellings of the politics of the gods and stories of transcendent passion and compassion often leave the truth sounding more like a puzzle or a riddle, a science fiction or fantasy rendering than what is supposed to be “real life.” This madman's task has seeming fallen upon this humble wanderer, this grad school dropout, this foolish dilettante, to deconstruct some of the pivotal points of the religious paradigms that are held by nigh half the world's peoples.
Indeed, for what I have come across in my studies and searchings has implications which overturn the array of world mythologies and world religion(s) as these stand in the minds of most, and thus has quite startling implications for culture and society as a whole. This only scarcely hidden story I have uncovered would/will/ought unravel the myth of “the West” as it is constructed, and present a quite inverted construction and mythic typology compared to the current, and if considered and critically examined shall likely inexorably alter the common cosmology of much of the world.
Essentially what I contend is that the Abrahamic religions, Judaism, Christianity and Islam represent rather deliberate inversions or at least twisted versions of the religion of Abraham's ancestors, which I shall assert to be sanAtana dharma or “Hinduism.” Central to this lila, this rather absurd play, is the very construction of who and what is “God” and who or what is to be taken as the opposite of God by our collective and common mythological understandings.

These are facts no one affiliated with any of the religions involved would reasonably call into question:
-brahman is Sanskrit for the Universal Divine Being, and atman is that Divine Soul as is manifest in each.
-Brahma, Vishnu and Shiva are the Creator, Maintainer and Destroyer expressions of God according to sanAtana dharma (Hinduism).
-Buddhists generally taut abrahman and unatma, that is, they do not believe in God nor the seed of God already present in each and all.
-Abraham and Sarah and Hagar and their tribe originated from Ur of the Chaldese, the which has been determined to be in far southeast Iraq, rather near Indus Valley Civilization, which was in fact waning at the time Abraham is tauted by the Torah/Old Testament to have departed his homeland in Ur to venture to the west, somewhere around 1900 BCE.
-Brahma and Saraswati are the Creator and His Consort according to Hinduism. The Hakkar is a tributary river to the Saraswati River. Abraham and Sarah and Hagar sound rather like Brahma and Saraswati and Hakkar, likely too much for this to be mere coincidence.

-according to Judaism, “the Righteous” go to a place called Abraham's bosom or Sheol after they die to await Judgment Day. Sheol translates toHades” in Greek, i.e., “Hell.”
-The Hebrews worship Yahweh. (find purported origin of name)
-The Lord of Death and Hell in Hinduism is Yama, who was the first mortal to attain knowledge of brahman and thus became a Deva (a god) and was given charge for schooling other mortals not devoted to the Divine already, as well as charge over the underground Hell, supposing any mortal souls need such harsh schoolings as are therein proffered.
-The Horned God of Europe, who many have identified with the horned figure on the Indus Valley Seal or Pasupati, Protector of animals and souls, an ancient Avatar of Shiva, has served as the model for much of what has been constructed as “the Devil” in at least the Judeo-Christian lore (and also, I might note, in pop-culture inversions—or re-inversions—in their representations of the mischievous “Devil”).
I first had my questions regarding the heaven and hell of the Christian religion, and specifically the place the Hebrews calledSheolor the Bosom of Abraham, when or perhaps even before I was a Christian minister. I was not alarmed enough about the potential implications of that underground place as the holding place of righteous dead Jews (Huh? I thought the underground place some people go after they die is Hell?! Why does the Bible say that the Bosom of Abraham is “down?”) to give it a great deal of thought at the time, assuming perhaps that some theologians must have already worked that problem out at some point in the long history of the church. To spell it out for you, what I am thus contending is that Abraham's covenant of loyalty to Yahweh (i.e., Yama) was essentially the beginning of a grand inversion by which the Lord of Hell is being held up as God . . . and then the Being previously considered the Universal Divine Self was rendered “the Devil.”
I was also given clue to the importance of the connection between Abraham and Brahma, if rather as a warning than as a heads up, when I was attending Oklahoma Baptist University. A religion professor had been giving a lecture about Abraham and company traveling across southern Asia to settle in Palestine and the class was about to let out. Dr. Dawson then said, with rather an odd glint in his eyes,
“Now there may be those who tell you that Abraham is somehow connected to the Hindu god Brahma . . . but we know better than that, now don't we?!”
I resigned my ministry and largely ceased my affiliation with the Christian church before my last year in college at OBU largely as I had determined that what they taught is largely untrue, both in terms of their understanding of language and Divine truth and in terms of history, though I had no idea to what degree they were in err, if not covering up the truth of the story to bolster their spin. Again and most startlingly, it is actually their god that is the Lord of Hell. According to sanAtana dharma, those who are not otherwise devotees of brahman in whatever guise, via Shiva or Krishna or Parvati, etc., then Yama is in charge of their dharma/schooling. As the Abrahamites left the place and religion of their homeland in Ur and it seems from the name of their patriarch rejected brahman, they thus became attached to Yama as their Lord, and they called him Yahweh. The God of the “polytheistic” Hindus is actually the God of Abraham's forefathers, brahman, both and neither male and female, “God” to Abraham's forefathers.

Essentially, one might see the dispersion of people and specifically religions from India and from sanAtana dharma as a dialogue that is essentially the question “to Be or not to Be.” Buddhism tauts Nirvana, non-Being as they see it, as bliss, and Abrahman, no-God, as a philosophical hypothesis or supposition around which entire civilizations were built.

Though not so bold or forthright with their statement of the question or challenge to the established notion of brahman (nor perhaps generally much aware of this aspect of said root to their religions), the Abrahamic traditions nonetheless have been bound on that task to find means of interpreting the world without those more ancient and more abiding understandings of what this all is as expressed in brahman. It is as if Abraham and crew said, as they departed from Ur and the world according to sanAtana dharma, “If indeed, Abrahman (no “God” as we were taught) then what?” As would be predicted by sanAtana dharma, Yama becomes their Lord and the Deva (god) responsible for their dharma (schooling), again as alluded to by the place the Hebrews believe they go after death, the underground place they call Sheol or the Bosom of Abraham, and the name of their God “Yahweh” so phonetically nigh to “Yama.” If viewed from the broadest perspective, it is as if humanity is playing out the “question of God” or perhaps “To be or not to be . . .” in the play of peoples and nations, tribes and myths, experimenting with how whatever really is the truth will respond to the presentations proffered. A discursive play of words ordering the play of nations. At least as played out in the Abrahamic religions, the answer or apology proffered to that rejection of brahman is fitted to within the context of the religion they left behind, sanAtana dharma, still certainly prominent in the wandering tribe's constructions of reality after leaving behind Abraham's ancestors who “worshiped other gods” (Old Testament/Torah), and thus the “Hindu” Lord of Hell, Yama, becomes their God as “Yahweh.”

I suppose I ought to note that Muslims obviously do not worship Yahweh (Yama), but in fact seem to have unconsciously endeavored to return their devotions to the Gods of their ancient forefathers by worshiping “Allah,” a name rather starkly near the name AllA, an appellation attributed to Durga, Consort of Shiva, that means “Mother” in Sanskrit. The all important confession from the perspective of Islam is called one of the kalimas, again rather quite like another name of Shiva's Wife, Kali Ma (“Black Mama”). Ummah is the central tenet of Islam translates as “community.” Uma Himavati is yet another of the names of Shiva's Consort, a Woman the Upanishads tout as Brahman in Female Form. Before Mohamed, it might be argues that Arabia was essentially “Hindu.” One of Allah's Daughters', according to the pre-Islamic mythology, was named Manat. One of Shiva's three Daughters is named Manasa. By these evidences and many more, it appears that the cycles of the three Abrahamic religions rather succinctly follow, else are response to and despite their intentions bound to within the context of sanAtana dharma. The above information is among the many reasons I am a practitioner of yoga (translates as “yolk” and is root to said English word), a practitioner of sanAtana dharma, “keeping it together forever.”


In essence what I am proposing is a unified perspective of mythology and religion and culture and history that recognizes that many of the figures of various mythologies may well be/are actual conscious entities, else at least deserve consideration as something more than merely imaginary characters, indeed more than merely abiding and intrinsic archetypes. In order to adequately analyze a mythology's purport, one cannot approach without some faith in the reality of what you study, it's verity and that at some level and in some guise, its gods are real. With that in mind, what I would propose to do is to in some guise trace the play of the gods across recorded history. Exemplary of this would be examining relationship between the Hindu maya/Mahamaya and the Greek goddess Maya, daughter of Atlas according to said mythology. The relationship between Lalitha (Hindu tradition) and Lilith (Judeo-Christian lore) is another example of the tantalizing possible secrets of the Gods are there to be discovered, as are traces of Pasupati/Shiva on a cauldron found in Scandinavia, far away from Indus Valley Civilization as we know of it, thus identifying the Horned God of Europe with Shiva, not to mention the Baba Quiveri Indians along the border in Arizona who worshiped Bairabu and Viraseva, Bhairavi and Great God Shiva, etc.
Whether transmitted by social and cultural means available to the description of the social scientist or else manifest by esoteric and occulted and “supernatural” phenomena, these seeming lineages of mythology do indeed exist beyond mere coincidence. That these nigh cognates and such so soundly connect seeming disparate mythologies as traces in the narratives and plays of peoples and cultures, myths and religions and the play of the Gods/gods, is well enough evinced. Indeed evidence indicates the possibility of a continuous and contiguous plot that supersedes individual cultures and religions and civilizations and the rather narrow purview of most histories writ, and might discern the subtle discourse that tells history in terms of the mind(s) of God/the gods, whether they be merely us or no.



Dance of Dualism in the Kali Yuga
(Rough outline for book)

To Be or Not To Be : brahman or Abrahman
Yugas, Kalpas and the age of the Earth
Tropes and archetypes: Kali Ma and Gauri Ma myth and the Kali and Gauri Yuga, illusory dualims...
As Above so Below: tribes and nations representing/presenting various angles on that question, the play of peoples as God pondering, mind played out in matter, in intrigues of state and in everyday people's lives.
Buddhism touts Abrahman and unatma
Abrahamic religions indirectly posit or subtly posit the theory of Abrahman, represented in Abraham's departure from his homeland and the religion of his ancestors, who touted brahman.
Hebrew myth of Abraham meeting Yahweh to sacrifice Isaac is his meeting with Yama, as would be expected by the paradigm of Abraham's ancestors. Why else would the “bosom of Abraham” be underground?! Jeshua thus likely was an Avatar of Ayyappa, the Protector of Created Beings and Only Son of Shiva and Vishnu (i.e., when Vishnu was a Woman named Mohini) come to the Hebrews (Abrahamic/Abrahman touting people) to “save them” . . . from the error of the rhetorical position they play...? Islam a last ditch attempt to revive the Abrahamic/Abrahman thesis, calling on Kali Ma (kalima) and Uma Himavati (Ummah)... “Mommy!!!!”
Dispersion theory, and why European historiography rejected such, i.e., racism and sexual repression and fear of their own origins (thus they came up with the Aryan invasion myth)...

Dispersion of Indus Valley Civilization: The Race Between Ganesha and Skanda.
Northern Europe: Pasupati and the Horned God, Indus Valley Seal and Gundestrup Cauldron
American Indians
Zulus: Kartikeya and Unkulunkulu
Abrahamic religions
Buddhism, the question internalized

The Lila (Grand Play) of history in this age is a rhetorical question . . .
Responses to theodicy, “Good God, all-powerful, so why is there suffering

Dispersion of the thesis “to Be.”

Dispersion of the antithesis “not to Be.”
[The Panchen Lama on Mao Tse Tung (note the similarity represented in Judaism and their modern day Nebuchadnezzar, Hitler) . . .]

*The question is an oversimplified tension, a shallow binary dualism
Foucault on inescapable arrangement of power in binary arrangement of power

Derrida's “differánce” the solution

Tandava the cure for the delusion of dualism and is the truth that transcends it . . .


Shiva-Kali Ma are not opposites, despite One as “Effulgent” and the Other as “Black/Dark,” One a Male and One a Female, and are in fact the selfsame Self . . . Differánce Divine. Similarly, though there are overt differences Kali Ma and Gauri Ma, and metaphorically and otherwise the Kali Yuga and Gauri Yuga (the Golden Age in the midst of the Dark Age), these are not properly understood as opposites, but in fact are the Same and same when one sees beyond the veils of Maya. As Ma Gauri (“Golden”) emerges from Ma Kali (“Black/Dark”) and Both remain in essence the same Beautiful Goddess Mother of the Universe, so the Gauri Yuga in the midst of the Kali Yuga is in truth not so different nor in truth separate from the essence of the encompassing Kali Yuga. This truth of Advaita is indeed the saving grace might yet be found in this “Dark Age.”