Relationship status "Complicated" . . . She has been present in every of the women I have known as lover, at least by some measure. She is Mahamaya, the beauty and granduer and splendor of the illusion, She makes up the matrix of reality and provides the stage for this romance. She is Durga, a name which literally means 'inaccessible,' at least alot of the time. She is the Mother but I'm rather sure She's not mine. As a yogi of the tantra school She is my partner in practice even when I am alone, the linga of my flesh not encompassed in a woman's warm yoni. I have at least met Her as Avatar fully manifest as one or another of the Beloveds I've encountered in my wanderings, as one of those exceptionally beautiful and beatific women I chanced notice and perhaps romance somewhere along the way. She is Wife of my True Self for all eternity, yet often as not I sleep alone. Complicated indeed.